Delusion-Elle

Just finished my CPSC online quiz (due in 30 min.) so I'm in a decently good mood.

So... my Physics midterm was... horrible to say the least. The way I see it now is that I'm going to

I just found this (requires Last.fm account w/scrobbles) which analyzes the songs you listen to and tells you what keys they're in: http://users.last.fm/~matt/hackey/ And you can click the different parts of the pie chart to hear a snippet of a song in that key. The details are here.
Here be my results (screencap'd and hosted by Imageshack):

Time for random wannabe-deep thoughts.

When I listen to songs and look up lyrics on songmeanings.net, my mind thinks of strange things.
Click 'Read more' if you want to be further "enlightened", but it's probably going to end up being a rant kind of thing.

WARNING: WALL OF TEXT  & tl;dr

"Love?" by Strapping Young Lad
I was craving this song last night. I know I'm probably being self-centred and self-absorbed, but I'm still feeling messed up by the whole idea of a relationship. There's really no reason for me to be (I'm not interested in anyone in particular right now, and no one is [ever] interested in me). Regardless, it got me thinking: what exactly is love? I could launch into the Haddaway song and quote that, but my thoughts went to this song instead. I guess it's mostly because it's so angry and I really wasn't in a happy mood last night.
So what is love? My psych prof discussed love briefly as an emotion motivated by that animal instinct to reproduce. I had never really thought of it that way (aside from looking at this song's lyrics, posted below). Love, so I thought, is supposed to be some wonderful thing; a mutual affection between two people encompassing attraction, a click of the minds, and/or a complement of personalities. That's what I wanted to think.
But is there a negative aspect to love? Love... the need to feel needed? The only way to avoid that feeling of loneliness? If you're in need of love, then you're not in control. You become a slave to this state and emotion that you believe in. That's practically a fact -- how many times have we been driven crazy trying to pursue someone? So love, this good and "right" emotion, is, come to think of it, born from fear of loneliness and greed. It's a selfish emotion. But then, so are most emotions.
Love is about control and the selfish search to fulfill a need. Not that it's a bad thing, but as beautiful a thing as we would all like to believe love is, it's just as much a biological process that makes us manipulative and needy. I guess these are just the thoughts of a swingin' single who doesn't want to care anymore.

WARNING: This song has mucho swearing. And the first time I heard it, I was kind of offended (like WTF BREEDING?!), but I loved the opening riff so I downloaded it and gave the lyrics a second chance later.

MARCH!!!

LOVE... is a way of feeling
LOVE is a way of feeling less alone
So what's all the fuss about?!?

"FUCK IT"

LOVE: the paradox of needing
OH LOVE,
MAKE WAY FOR BREEDING

GIVE IT TO ME! GIVE IT TO ME!
FUCK YOU AND YOUR TALK OF LOVE!
I know what I stand for; I STAND FOR ME!!!

I'll wait for the night to come
So far, suicide at home
For I'm not the man you know
This love it's about control

OH WHAT A FEELING!!!!!
OH WHAT A FEEDING!!!!!
Know the chosen ones ARE HERE!
ALL HAIL!!! ...SHIT

(FUCK IT!)
I'll wait for the night to come
So far, suicide at home
For I'm not the man you know...
This love, IS ABOUT CONTROL

YOU FUCKERS!

ALL IN THE NAME OF LOVE
ALL IN THE NAME OF LOVE
ALL IN THE NAME OF LOVE