Delusion-Elle

Quick question: Does anyone know how to clean a laptop fan? My laptop whirs like an absolute bitch and it's getting on my already stretched thin nerves. And I'm pretty sure that my warranty's expired. :(

So my project's due date has been pushed back to Sunday night and my project partner is currently at work so I'm going to procrastinate until she goes online. There's nothing imminent requiring copious amounts of studying and my math homework isn't due until Wednesday so I'm not feeling overly guilty. That being said, I'm still feeling the stress of a looming deadline and my murderous sleep schedule isn't helping. Hrm, and I realized that I'm not even going to be in contact with anybody for Hug a Stressed Out College Student Day (it'll be a day of studying Math 221). So I guess I'll be doling out e-hugs from my blog or something.

This cold weather is horrid. I've realized that the worst part is just how dry my skin is. I'm goddamn reptilian right now, I swear. Yuck! And more snow is forecast, though there is a chance that it'll just end up being rain. As depressing as the rain is, at least it signals warmer temperatures! :)

So celebrated author and history prof at UBC Henry Yu wrote an article in response to MacLean's shitstorm-inducing article titled "Too Asian". I'm not linking to that piece of crap again. All I am going to say on this matter is that Dr. Yu got it right. Definitely. This is one of those rare occasions where the "six degrees of separation" phenomena is kind of cool since my aunt knows him through friends, says my mom. Regardless, I'm pretty sure it's less than six degrees in many many cases.

Weird coinky-dink of the day: I am finally 210% sure that there is this one guy in my CPSC class who's also in my Music classes. And the reason why I am so insanely sure (I know I'm bad for not being so sure before, but my 24-hour memory is atrocious) now is that he wore the same clothes today as yesterday. Now stop. I must defend the reason why I remember what he wore yesterday. The truth is that... I was wearing the same thing. =_____= A red t-shirt and a black hoodie. IDK about jeans or whatever since I didn't care to look that carefully. Sadly I was wearing the same thing today as yesterday so ... we were matching again. @_____@ Wow. Fail. So much for getting away with wearing the same thing two days in a row because "oh no one actually sees me for two consecutive days at school!". Dammit.

Seeing Deathly Hallows pt. 1 yesterday night was worth falling behind in schoolwork. :) I grew up with Harry Potter. It's like my childhood's almost over now. Just one more movie and there won't be any more HP for me to anticipate. I feel like I can't even judge how good/bad the movies are, really. They're the movie equivalents of the books of my childhood. No matter how good/bad the acting is, or how well/poorly it was directed or scripted, it was like an obligation to watch each and every one of them.

I also learned today that high school boys think that university-/college-aged girls are all like those sluts in "Girls Gone Wild". In other words, when my brother tells his friends/classmates/cohorts that he has a sister in university, they are all very disappointed when they meet me, apparently. I think I'm glad? o____o At the same time, my self-esteem is done no favours. Apparently they think of me as "Ewwwww" to the point that I become the butt of jokes or something. .___."

Which reminds me that someone told me that when someone flirts with you or hits on you, it's a self-esteem booster. However, that really doesn't apply when the person who is hitting on you hits on every girl who's "Asian". Honestly, that's got to be one of the stupidest things ever.

I need to see my grandma again. Soon, I think. And with everything that's happened to her in the past few months, I can't and don't blame her at all.

"And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home, never coming home
Could I? Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts are never gonna catch me"
- My Chemical Romance, "The Ghost of You"

Yup. I've gone back to a strictly comfort music kind of diet. Yes, comfort music includes all that angsty stuff that made those horrible days in high school just a little more bearable. It gets me through the day. I'm beyond the point of caring if people see me lip-syncing or hear me singing around campus.

Here's hoping that I don't wake up at 3AM like last night, or 4:30AM like the night before.