Delusion-Elle

delusional, since 1991 *pew pew*

In fact, today is the day after Friday. And if you want to get super technical, then it is in actuality Sunday morning (1AM) right now. And I don't want to comment on a certain 13-year old who recently released a pathetic excuse for a music video. Oh, but it looks like I just did. Sorry there.

I am in a decently good mood right now and I'm not sure why. It might be because of the fact that the due dates for two of my assignments have been extended, or it might be because I'm already done one of my assignments due Monday. But enough about everyday trivialities.

In terms of real world events, today the USA launched Operation Odyssey Dawn. With my head stuck firmly in the clouds of university life and the recent Japanese earthquake (and the thankfully minuscule implications it had for the west coast), I admit that I haven't been able to fully comprehend the situation in Libya. As far as I know, as with Egypt back in January, there is civil unrest in the nation. Gadhafi is being a jerk of sorts, especially with his poor treatment of civilians, and the UN voted to go pew pew on Libya, which of course brings us to OOD and the whole no-fly zone in effect. All in all, I understand that Britain and France have been "chomping at the bit" (as my mother puts it) to get America involved, but the fact that civilians have lost their lives just doesn't sit exactly right with me. Don't get me wrong, Gadhafi's attitude and whatnot doesn't sit well with me either. I just think that the world's in a sad state right now, and yet I can sit here and worry about failing quizzes. For once I am grateful that the only thing I'm worrying about immediately is whether or not my 221 project will get done by Monday 9PM.

I feel like I've said this before, but perhaps reiteration will ease my irritation... I've found that I really do not enjoy people in relationships pitying me. I enjoy being single. I enjoy being able to focus on myself and figuring out who I am exactly. I enjoy not having to have that extra bit of responsibility. I like the idea of there being a deeper, greater kind of love that I have found with songs and music -- a kind of love that is unconditional and unadulterated. I don't want to hear "oh you'll find someone someday" or "you've never had a boyfriend? Sadface" or "someone's going to come along that you'll deem worthy". Especially that last sentiment. That one makes me feel as though I am a heartless, complete, total, and utter bitch. I just don't want to hear those kinds of dreamy, "I believe in fairy tales and happy endings" statements. Being in a relationship is not the be-all, end-all. Is it so hard for people to accept that I have embraced the idea of being "forever alone"? Is it so hard for people to let go of the idea that a relationship = happiness? I don't think that I can actually fathom why people want to be in relationships. If they want that feeling of being needed, get a cat.

Also, quick letter to society:


Dear 3 dweebs sitting at the back of the X350 lab room,
The fact that you are so loudly voicing the fact that none of you want to have any daughters is a fact most fascinating indeed. And your reasoning is infinitely sound and understandable: girls are stupid. Yes, girls are most certainly stupid and horrible creatures. God forbid any more of them should be unleashed onto this world. I hope that you make this fact known to each and every girl you meet. Because yes, she will be stupid, and horrible, and she is totally going to dig the fact that you think so poorly of those women creatures. Ah yes, too many of those women creatures in your household would mean, oh what was that term you used so cleverly, that you would be "pussy-whipped". And Lord knows no one would want any of you three to be pussy-whipped.
Oh by the way, did you know that your mother was a daughter? No? Well I guess that that would explain why she raised you to believe that women are worthless creatures, silly creature that she is.
With love,
Me.

Today I watched Black Swan with a few friends just in my basement. That was nice. Having 4 people seems to be just the right amount to get some honest conversation going. So here, have a fantastic version of the Swan Lake theme done in a capella by Canadian band The Agonist:


Also, off the heels of my last post about the new Within Temptation album, I'm absolutely obsessed with this song right now:

Lyrics as far as I can tell:

I've got to try, it's not over yet
The signals of love have you left

My heart is bleeding just for you
Bleeds for only you
And it hurts to know the truth
Are you looking for saviour, chasing a dream
Love turned to hate
Now I'm crossing the border
Sealing our fate but I'm not afraid

Oh Sinéad
For the first time life is gonna turn around
I'm telling you, you will like it I know
(I know, I know, I know, I Know, I know)
Oh Sinéad
It's the first time
Only you can set it free
Oh Sinéad
Come break away with me

This second chance I know won't last
But it's okay, got no regrets
And I, I feel the end near, I'm a fool
Can't get closer
But I'm doing what I should

I've been drowning in sorrow
Chasing tomorrow
Running away

Now you're crossing the border
Sealing tomorrow
But you're not afraid

Oh Sinéad
For the first time life is gonna turn around
I'm telling you, you will like it I know
(I know, I know, I know, I Know, I know)
Oh Sinéad
It's the first time
Only you can set it free
Oh Sinéad
Come break away with me

I've been drowning in sorrow
Chasing tomorrow
Running away

Now you're crossing the borders
Sealing tomorrow
But you're not afraid

Oh Sinéad
For the first time life is gonna turn around
I'm telling you, you will like it

Oh Sinéad
For the first time life is gonna turn around
I'm telling you, you will like it I know
(I know, I know, I know, I know, I know)
Oh Sinéad
It's the first time
Only you can set it free
Oh Sinéad
Come break away with me
Actually, I think that this song might have something to do with my decently good mood.

0 comments:

Post a Comment

Join the bitchfest!