Delusion-Elle

I am not. D:
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Sorry, I just cracked myself up talking to my fobby friend. Because I amuse her and she tells me so and it makes me feel awesome. :D

So, yeah. I don't get it. I mean, I thought I understood guys fairly decently. I do live with a 15-year old boy (at least I think that he's 15, I don't remember), after all. So I feel like I must address some things before I muddle my thoughts even more.



Firstly, what's with all the talking? As far as I know, only gay guys like to talk that much. Or guys that you've been friends with since grade 3 or earlier. ._. But then it makes sense that you're able to talk to those guys because they either: a) relate to you on some sort of level, or b) have gone through enough with you to have stuff to talk about. And I quite like having male friends. They offer such fresh perspective sometimes. Other times, they're just as jerk-ish as the rest of the male population, but that's forgivable. Mostly. But guys get over things just like that so that's kinda cool. :) But anyhow, I don't understand why he feels compelled to talk to me (practically) every day.

Secondly, why so friendly? The girlfriend thing has come up a few times now in relatively small ways compared to the lengths of our conversations (that by itself is abso-frickin'-lutely ridiculous). And I have to admit that it bothers me. It bothers me that he talks so much to me after making it known that he has a girlfriend. It also kind of bothers me that he even has a girlfriend, but MOVING ON. We do talk about guy things, mainly -- video games, sports, all that jazz. I think I have a new personal tagline: Your boyfriend's best female friend. Yup, that's me.

Thirdly (English teachers around the world would have my head on a stick for using this), why? Just why? Why me? Why him? Why does he have to be so nice? Why do we have to have similar interests?! Does he already talk this stuff to death with his girlfriend? If that were so, I'd feel a lot better about our conversations. And then I wonder, maybe all those times where it takes him like 5 minutes to reply, what if he is talking to his girlfriend? One of the many things I'd wish to know. That, and WHAT THE HECK IS HE WANTING TO SAY WHEN IT SAYS THAT HE'S TYPING AND THEN HE NEVER SENDS THE MESSAGE? SPIT IT OUT, RETARD.

But really, in retrospect, I know that it SHOULD just be kept to friends at this point. Too fast too soon is no good. And being that 'other woman' is also a BIG no-no in my books. So friends it is. The end. That's it. End of discussion.



Not really. D: I've just got to fully realize that it's just all on a friends level.
Even if no other guys have treated me like such a good friend so quickly.
Even if I keep getting sneaking suspicions.
Even if I like to delude myself into thinking VERY BAD THOUGHTS.

lololol don't misinterpret that 'very bad thoughts' bit. My mind is as pure as a white dove caught in the clouds of innocence, led there by a light zephyr, typical of May. :)

'kay, gonna watch some HIMYM, I think. If I've got the URL right...
:D