Delusion-Elle

Firstly, I have some awesomeness to share with you. Yes, it came to me by way of the Jackass, but THE CRAP ON THIS SITE IS SO AWESOME. I WANT TO BUY IT ALL.
Clicketh.

I was thinking last night, before I went to sleep. I was thinking about my friends.
Now, I don't want anyone to think that this is a post/entry meant to "suck up" to you guys ('cause we all know that I don't need to ;)) or to boost your self-confidence/esteem or anything. This is just me and my thoughts. They are honest. They are what I thought last night.

WARNING: I am sleep-deprived and punchy so I'm not in the mood to censor myself. This is my soul being poured out in a blog post. I won't think any less of you if you don't even bother reading the rest of this.

I feel very lucky: (in terms of my girl friends, most notably) I have the most beautiful people for friends. Okay, so that isn't including that godly level of hotness like Johnny Depp (I can't think of a female equivalent), but you guys girls are a very good-looking bunch of girls. And to top that, you are all insanely nice. Not just the basic 'oh she's a nice girl' sort of thing, but you guys are supportive, fiercely loyal, and you never push things beyond other people's boundaries. If you want me to personally give you a long diatribe of all your good points, just message me. For a generally pessimistic person, it's kinda strange, but for people, I have to admit that I try to focus on the good. Unless the person is a grade A turkey.

I think that you're all too good for me. You guys girls look good, you dress nicely, and you've all got great personalities. Who am I? I am Awkward McAwkwardson. I'm not pretty like you girls, I'm not a trendy dresser, and I don't have the sparkling personality of nice and awesomeness. I am acne-ridden (which I guess isn't really my fault, but still I hate it), mean, and annoying. I don't know how you guys gals put up with me. I could see if you're a geeky, white kid, desperate for friends, but none of you are.

But thing is that I don't feel awkward with you. Okay, well, if I'm feeling self-conscious about myself, I feel yucky, but I keep it to fleetingness. But no, I don't actually feel awkward with you guys. Which just re-affirms my "omg, these girls are AWESOME" belief.

And maybe PROBABLY I'm just going through a "feeling shitty" phase. But it made me appreciate you guys a lot lot lot. Or at least it made me express these appreciation and thankfulness openly.

I am honoured that I'm included in your circle of friends.
I AM NOT WORTHY. orz OTL

You guys are so QK. <3