Delusion-Elle

I kind of want to do what A.Ng did in his last blog post about what crazy business is going down in his brain, but I'm not sure that I could pinpoint anything or assign percentages.

Maybe if I ramble about some other stuff first, I can get on with it.

I never thought of this song as being very sad before, but it got me all teary-eyed this morning. I blame the hormones. I think that the vocalist makes it very red, otherwise the original is very black and gold/yellow, and kind of feels like it's in a tube. I think I should get over this song and this album, but I can't.

I realized the other day that I learned a lot of weird things from songs. Sometimes not directly from songs, but they made me want to Wikipedia things which then led to learning.
Let's make a list because I enjoy seeing those round little bullet things. (No, I don't.)
And really, I have nothing better to do. I hate Math and I hate Physics. They totally just ruined my reading break.

• Odysseus/Iliad/Fall of Troy/Helen of Troy with that face that launched a thousand ships and shiet
• Swan Lake
• reacquaintance with the Lady of Shalott
• Rose Red - like srsly who the feck has heard of that fairytale character?
• the real story of Rapunzel
• 1001 Arabian Nights
• Elizabeth Bathory
• Stockholm Syndrome
• Tolkien's The Silmarillion 
• Goethe's Faust
• Milton's Paradise Lost - before we studied it in Lit, lolol
• fairy hills? - idk, it's what the song sounded like to me ><

I think this is enough proof of my geekiness. x)

Really into this trip-hop band right now. Their music is like chillout/dark ambient/darkwave/ebm/dreamy/downtempo electronica. Their latest album is up for free download, yay! Lightest, most delicate female vocals ever. o__o

Long post is long and it's time to cut it.

Alright, time to figure out what's in my head. And no, I don't care about math so I don't give a crap if the numbers don't add up lolol.

Music - something's always playing, words are always going, synaesthetic colour patterns are always twisting. If I'm listening to music, then it becomes probably 50% of my brain, otherwise it's probably 30%? Tied closely to feelings. I hate that songs make me cry. COME ON, MAN UP!
Writing - the only other remotely artsy thing I think I can sorta do. LOL yes, that just reeked of self-confidence. Right now, I have 2 stories I'm in the middle of writing. About 2 or 3 chapters away from finishing one - omg YES. So if I'm not yakking to people, I'm probably dedicating 20% of my brain to exploring scenarios and playing with words.
Hunger - 5% generally, but if I'm rly rly hungry, it grows to about 85% and squishes everything else to virtually nothing.
Learning - I try to learn stuff about people and just pick up random facts. BUT I do not blurt said random facts out loud unless they are relevant and would prove helpful in such an instance. This is probably 10%.
Worrying - I am kind of a worrywart. Oh noes school. Oh noes next week. Oh noes tomorrow. Oh noes what's going to happen to my notebook of songs if I forget the tunes? Oh noes I'm hungry. If I let it get to me, it can take about 20% of my mental processes, otherwise I try to keep it at about 15%. This also includes thoughts about the future (career, people, running people over while driving, etc.)
Analyzing - After I learn stuff about people/things/blah, I analyze it. It's probably 5-10% of my brain, but it still happens. This is also where I piece shiet together about people and figure out what my next projects and stuff are. This is the actual smart part of me, I think.
Existing - 5-10% dedicated to everyday thought processes like brushing my teeth and remembering my password for my e-mail account. In other words, this is all the short-term stuff. Will expand to 20% or more if talking to especially awesome people who provide me with especially stimulating conversation lololololol.

Yay, I don't think my subconscious math failed too too hard. And a cookie for you if you read this all. LAWL totally NOT EXPECTING TO GIVE ANY, but here... (::) it's chocolate chip ;D