Delusion-Elle

Just a quick 'hello' tonight. I know that I have tons to do, but absolutely no motivation to do it so I've decided that my time right now would be better spent sleeping, as opposed to forcing my opinions on the world (aka blogging).

I think that this is the first term where I've passed all of my midterms, not including first term last year. I think I passed all of my midterms then, too. I think. Huzzah! I also somehow managed a 95% on my music assignment (which is my highest university mark on anything ever). Groovy. Feeling so confident about my minor. I'm definitely thinking about upgrading that to a major. Once I'm done my degree, that is.

My day was plenty boring, anyway. Except for a disastrous 213 quiz, the day was rather nondescript, though my 101 class is hilarious. My prof played the German national anthem for us today (which is apparently based on a string quartet piece by Haydn [Emperor]). Silliness ensued. I love how my music profs seem rather stuffy at times, but if you listen closely, you can catch them saying strange and hilarious things: "Everyone had Vivaldi-fever!", "Then you'd jump up a ninth. *sings a squeaky leap of a ninth in soprano range* And the Emperor wouldn't like that so you'd die! *brandishes pencil*"

The rest of my week is as follows:
- Wednesday: volunteering, work on 221 lab, start 213 assignment
- Thursday: work my butt off on my Stats assignment & 221 project
- Friday: work my butt off on Stats assignment, 221 project, and 213 assignment, hand in 221 lab (hopefully)
- Saturday: watch Black Swan with a few friends, work on 213 assignment, work on 101 assignment
- Sunday: Sleeeeeeeeep, study for 121 quiz, study for 213 quiz, catch up on things

Yay, it's 11PM, time for bed.

My thoughts go out to the protesters in Egypt fighting for true democracy. Shit's getting pretty real and dangerous over there -- death toll is reportedly up to 100 and ancient Egyptian artifacts are being destroyed. In museums! To paraphrase my brother: "This is one for the history books."

I'll keep this entry short today because I would really like to type up my assignment tonight since I've pretty much written it all out in scratch. Unfortunately I've got a headache (they seem to be nearly daily occurrences now) and I've still got my 221 lab to finish by Monday and my music 101 assignment due Thursday. I also need to look up some books to borrow from the music library about Vivaldi. I'm going to set my alarm for 9:30AM tomorrow, methinks.

Today I lazed about at home working on this accursed assignment and watching the NHL All-Star Super Skills competition. Sadly, watching hours of hockey & hockey-related things (I caught the full players draft from yesterday online today) is probably what caused my headache.

I just realized something late last night. I really missed hanging out with people of different ethnicities and backgrounds in high school. Not to say that my group of high school friends were/are boring at all, but in elementary school I befriended all sorts of people. And that's what I like about university; befriending people of different backgrounds and getting glimpses into life of a different culture. I think that my grade 12 English teacher commented on this weird segregational phenomenon that seems to affect people and their groups of friends from grade 8 to 12. ... That's pretty much the only positive thing I can say about university at this moment.

Back to work!

With my CPSC 221 project done and out of the way, I can now focus on the bazillion and one other things I have to do. These include my unfinished 221 lab, 213 lab, 221 written assignment, and studying for a 213 quiz on Tuesday. Unfortunately these things aren't due until next week or so. This can only mean one thing: Procrastination.

Oh, and this coming weekend is the NHL All-Star weekend!! Which means very little work is going to get done.

That being said, I feel like if I just get down to it, I will get things done. That's strangely how things seem to work out for me; I struggle and whine and try my best, and sometimes with a little help, things work out okay in the end. I just wish that the struggling would diminish.

I swear to God, I cannot sit at the back of the long/articulated bus in the mornings anymore. And the reason is that there's this couple always sitting back there. And they talk. And PDA all over the goddamn place. I just want to sleep, thank you very much. So I sit with all the single riders at the back of the front half, even though I feel like I should be sitting on the back since I get off at the last stop and all. Eurgh.

These past few days I haven't been getting any good amounts of sleep so I've been passing out on the bus. Luckily it's always been for just the right about of time. I should be sleeping now and catching up, but you know me. I must subconsciously be a masochist. Or maybe I'm just afraid of the next day coming so quickly. I don't know.

Volunteering today was good. I am in no way a good teacher, but it seems like my two students are starting to get the hang of reading music, though very very slowly. I'm starting to wonder what it was like for me when I was learning how to read music and play piano. It was so very long ago that I have absolutely no recollection of it; I just have a codex in my head of all the notes and key signatures and things. Though, it's definitely something that comes with practice.
Admittedly, the best part of the day was when my students asked me to play something and I played an intro to something I wrote back in grade 11 and they really liked it. :) +50 SELF-ESTEEM.

... is it weird to have started playing the piano at the age of 5? I mean, my students were surprised when I told them, but then they're in grade 3 now, which is... 8 years old or so? But whatever, I never did ARCT so any sort of "oooh ahhh" factor to that fact is negated by my noobiness. It's just that everyone I know who plays the piano that I've talked to started at an early age (usually 5-6).

And to me, this has been old-ish news for a while now, but the fact that OH NOES internet usage will be charged for in Canada is finally making waves in the news! Admittedly, I see the lucrative side of this and I totally understand why companies would want to do this. But this also makes me sad because I don't have oodles of money to feed my internet addiction. :( Sorry, mom and dad. Also, this whole "Canadians are too plugged in to their computers/Internets/social media/etc." point reminds me of how Blenz is going to be offering red bands to single people to put on their coffee to show that said coffee-drinker is single and ready to mingle. Vancouver is a sad sad city, is all I have to say.

Also, I made friends today with my 221 lab partner's friend. They know each other from the shared year or two at the private school they both attended (before one did IB -- OVERACHIEVER ALERT!). I am sad to say that west side private school kids are not as bad as I thought they were. I mean, they're nice guys. And smart. It seems highly unfair that they are nice, smart, AND rich. The only thing is that I get the feeling that they are bit hoity-toity. Like, I swore in front of them and they seemed extremely bothered by it. Did they not understand that I was under intense pressure to finish a project on top of a 6:30AM wake-up?! Oh right, yeah, west side kids' commute to UBC is like half of mine. [/rant] Okay, yes, I'm jealous. I admit it. I'm probably about as green as the Green Giant now. Lovely. It's unbecoming, I know, but it's not like I care.

Have a comic!:

I feel so panicked about school right now, it is not even funny. It's like for some reason I just can't make myself think properly or code or ask for help. I'm just stewing in my failure and letting myself be helpless.

Apparently it's possible to incorporate the word "Vancouver" into song lyrics:


BRB JUMPING OFF OF BUCHANAN TOWER.

... is a frequent crossword answer in the 24hours paper. It is usually the answer to a clue concerning a "mixture" or "medley". And today my blog entry is somewhat of a hodgepodge -- as it often is -- of thoughts and observations from my day.

One of the trending topics on Twitter today was Kenneth Tong. Apparently he was a contestant on the UK version of Big Brother and now he's pushing this anorexia pill of his. He states that he in no way encourages anorexia, but rather "managed" anorexia. And of course, he's been getting backlash (from celebrities, no less!) for that. What a little twerp. His tweets include the following:

If your beautiful in your own way, am glad you appreciate yourself, cause that plus size garment can't breathe with your fat stretching it.

Been asked since I've established what Women should look like, what the perfect man should be like. I've a one word answer. Rich.

I wholeheartedly hope I put you off your Dinner. Look at yourself. You are a disgrace. That's why the Guy you like doesn't notice you.

Inner beauty is a myth. You are just fat. You are unloved. People look at you & are pleasant cause they feel sorry for you. Size Zero...

Thankful for this global opportunity to help girls all over the world know that to be skinny is to be perfect & to be fat is unacceptable.

I only have a few words to describe him right now: complete and utter asshat. Yes, obesity is a problem in certain countries and societies, but so is anorexia. What good is it being a size zero? Failing health in your later years? Looking like an emaciated sad sack of skin and bones? Being a pathetic follower of Kenneth Tong? There are plenty of successful, happy people who aren't a size zero. I'm not quite sure I even understand the point this guy is trying to make. Plus, my pet peeve alarm went off with his misuse of "your".

Today was overall a quiet day of reading because, good grief, I have a LOT of reading to catch up on. Apparently I was supposed to have started reading as soon as I had gotten my textbook before school had even started. Wow. Gee whiz. Anyhow, I took a few breaks from reading to catch the end of the Habs game and most of the Canucks game. I watched the Canucks game against the Red Wings on a live stream because the TV in my room is not in a sitting-at-desk-friendly position and someone in the chatbox during the stream posted a picture. Yes, that is Nicklas Lidstrom. Yes, he has a son that looks like Bieber. Lolwut. I swear to God, I did a doubletake and made sure that that wasn't Bieber when I first saw that picture.

And I have to say, Jimmy Howard was absolutely spectacular tonight. I'd say that based on his performance today, he totally deserved that win. And about Luongo and his theatrics? Eh, not so much.

I really really really need to focus tomorrow so I can finish my readings (ha-ha, not likely at this point) and prep my labs. Unfortunately this is the term of the labs. 3 of them, in fact. Oi.

As I was listening to Toto's "Africa" today in a bout of nostalgia, I remembered that this was my favourite song back when I was like 5. I even remember watching the music video on TV very very distinctly: the black and white colour scheme, the rain, the good-looking guys... My parents would even turn it up if it came on the radio in the car. Apparently I was very vocal about the music I liked back then. Funny how tastes can change in 15 years.

3 minutes until my 10 minute break is up.
My eyes feel tired.
I am cold.
Hell, I feel tired.
Oh and at the work dinner thing yesterday, we got tickets and prizes were drawn. Everyone got a prize. Mine was a mug. And then my manager came and dropped a pin into my mug. And my best gay friend was all like, "I WANT THAT PIN" so he traded his hoodie (worth $75!) for my one lousy pin. And I still have my mug.
The hoodie is a men's large, but I'm wearing it right now because it reminds me of Thomas (my gay bff, in case you didn't know) x) And I'm cold, so it's warming me up.
I could use another one of his hugs right now. T__T
Ack, and the 10 minutes are up. D:

EDIT: Okay. I'm back. I can't concentrate. And I found some sheet music to download/print. For winter break. D:

Every time I type 'essay' I want to make it 'essayer'. Yuss, I miss French. :(
Okay, so what else is up today?
I'm going to work hardcore on my essay and MAKE IT HAPPEN. I may only be at 159/1100 words right now, but that's more than 10%! D:
I also have every intention of prepping/doing my CPSC lab this weekend as well as MASTERING THAT MASTERINGPHYSICS SHIET. Ya!

Okay. Any spare time will be dedicated to CPSC studying/assignment.

D:

Much to do this weekend so I'll keep this blog entry short and boring.
To do list:

• CPSC Assignment #3
• Math homework
• English take-home essay
• MasteringPhysics
• Crystal Structures online assignment
• Prep Chem lab #4
• Chem atomic energetics quiz
• Chem molecular structure/bonding quiz

D:
Time to stop procrastinating!!!