Delusion-Elle

SUCK IT.

So I didn't get an A+ in either Engl 110 or 112.
But I'm happy with my A's.
Do I mean anything to you now?

Love,
Me

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In other news, I FREAKING PASSED PHYSICS, GUYS! :D
I'm pretty sure that my mark is a mistake, but if it isn't a lie, then I am done with Physucks. Forever.
:D

I woke up at 10am this morning despite only being able to fall asleep at 2:30am~3am (darn stimulating conversation that makes you THINK). But I'm not too tired right now. I just wanted the extra hour so I could study more effectively. See, instead of wasting studying time on procrastinating, I'm wasting sleep time. Yay for prioritization!!
And I saw this on my online/Last.fm friend's tumblr so why not?

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF

1. I have a grey cat with a smushed in face. :3
2. I play the piano, flute, and a bit of guitar. I like to pretend that I can sing.
3. I hate Physics. It is my worst subject EVER.
4. I am a geek, but I don't play video games as much anymore (GEE THANKS, UBC).
5. Guys that can't keep up with what I'm saying annoy me. Immensely.
6. I think that gay guys are the best type of guys.
7. I have a stack of 12 CD's on my desk right now that won't fit on my CD rack. D:
8. I am always hungry. ALWAYS.
9. I LOVE Harry Potter. <3
10. The best way I can study: sitting at home, listening to Emilie Autumn's instrumental CD, drinking ~2 bottles of water a day.

NINE THINGS YOU’VE THOUGHT ABOUT RECENTLY

1. Awww, I miss seeing people T^T
2. I wonder what it would sound like if I added ______.
3. I HATE PHYSUCKS SO MUCH.
4. I'm doomed. I'm going to fail.
5. Working at HMV again. *drool*
6. I... I just don't understand boys.
7. Can't wait to see Europe!!
8. When is Kamelot going to release their new album? T___T
9. Sometimes I like being single. Sometimes I don't.
   
   

EIGHT WAYS TO WIN YOUR HEART

1. Be smart.
2. Have a good sense of humour... or at least know when to laugh at stupid things that are undeniably funny. CHAAAAAAAARLIEEEEEEE.
3. Play an instrument. Or two. Or three. More is more, in this case.
4. Be gay.
5. Be nice to me & supportive.
6. Be able to have a decent conversation with me.
7. Play video games. Not necessarily with me, but just so that I can watch and scream when you almost die. :D
8. Do cute things that are guaranteed to even make someone like me go "Awwwww".

SEVEN FAVOURITE SONGS

1. When The Lights Are Down - Kamelot
2. Juliet - Emilie Autumn
3. The Scarecrow - Avantasia
4. *refers to Last.fm* Dead to the World - Nightwish
5. The Cross - Within Temptation
6. Sleepwalkers Dream - Delain
7. Numbered! - Devin Townsend Project

SIX YOU DO BEFORE YOU GO TO BED

1. Floss
2. Brush my teeth
3. Take a bath
4. Write in my diary
5. Put on skin cream crap
6. Hug my cat

FIVE THINGS YOU WANT TO SAY TO FIVE DIFFERENT PEOPLE

1. You are one of the most awesomest people I know. I'm so glad that I have you for a friend. We have so much fun together :)
2. Even though you're annoying ;) I'm going to miss you!
3. I wish we could hang out more. Actually, I could say this to a lot of people...
4. I don't get it. Or at least I don't know if I want to get it because I don't want to get hurt. Maybe I'm just making it all up in my head again. I guess it just takes time... OH NO WAIT, I KNOW: You're actually gay. Oh snap it all makes senses suddenly.
5. I don't ever want to see you again.

FOUR THINGS YOU ARE DOING RIGHT NOW

1. Typing this answer.
2. Breathing.
3. Feeling a bit hungry.
4. Waiting for my brother and his friends to leave so I can go down and eat food.

THREE THINGS YOU ARE SCARED OF

1. Relationshits.
2. What music nowadays is coming to.
3. Blood.

TWO THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE

1. Record an album that I can be satisfied with, or write something that I can be satisfied with.
2. Be 100% happy.

ONE CONFESSION

1. I do not like green eggs and ham.

EDIT: My life is pathetic. I just realized that I dreamt last night about playing the piano. It's pretty sad when the only piano playing you do is IN YOUR DREAMS. Stupid finals... *grumble grumble sniffle sniffle*
Oh, and this is how the shit's gonna go down for physucks...
T^T

THIS IS WHAT PHYSUCKS DOES TO ME:     
*T^T
*FUCK THIS SHIET I'M TRANSFERRING TO HOGWARTS
*or at least Arts


*oh my shit what are they doing in this explanation?
*DON'T PUT IT IN WRONG
You may find this funny.
IT IS NOT. These are the lunatic ravings of a Science student on the brink of madness... PHYSUCKS INDUCED MADNESS.
No course has made me madder.
No midterm have I scored worse on.
Me against physucks... this is war.

Physucks has forced the creation of this... FFMMFLF
WARNING: THERE BE SWEARS
It roughly translates to: phucking phuck my mother phucking life, phucker
And that sums up physucks completely.
I'm going to die, guys! D:

Okay, things to do...
Today: finish Engl research paper, prep CPSC lab, prep Phys lab, finish CPSC assignment - FUCK YEAH I'M AWESOME
Tuesday: edit/finish Engl research paper - I... I can't believe it's done. :D
Wednesday: [catch up on CPSC reading, start reviewing Phys] - postponed 'til Thurs Fri & Sat, start catching up on Psyc reading?
Thursday: catch up on Psyc reading, catch up on Phys reading!!!
Friday: start studying for finals T_____T
Saturday: training for work

No, it fucking sucks when you wake up mid-dream and you're lying on your stomach with your head on your arms and your arms hurt like crazy because your head made them fall asleep D:

Finished that crap I had to do for English. I think this is the most last-minute I've ever left an assignment. But it's okay. It's done.

Updated list of crap to do:

• read Phys (forever...)
• read CPSC (IDK, so behind ><)
• MasteringPhysucks (March 15)
• CPSC assignment #3 (March 19) -- 100% done!!
• prep next CPSC lab (March 16)
• read over next Phys lab (March 16)
• read Math (March 30)
• get caught up in Math homework (March 30)
• respond to Playland (March 19)
• fix up Engl proposal/bib according to tomorrow's peer review (March 15)
• register for summer course + $100 deposit (March 18)

I think we should have a group trip to the Harry Potter theme park @ Universal Studios. I think that it would be fun :) I mean, THEY FREAKING MADE A REPLICA OF HOGSMEADE VILLAGE. But maybe in a few years so we can build up our moneys to afford it.

Just finished my CPSC online quiz (due in 30 min.) so I'm in a decently good mood.

So... my Physics midterm was... horrible to say the least. The way I see it now is that I'm going to

I just found this (requires Last.fm account w/scrobbles) which analyzes the songs you listen to and tells you what keys they're in: http://users.last.fm/~matt/hackey/ And you can click the different parts of the pie chart to hear a snippet of a song in that key. The details are here.
Here be my results (screencap'd and hosted by Imageshack):

Time for random wannabe-deep thoughts.

When I listen to songs and look up lyrics on songmeanings.net, my mind thinks of strange things.
Click 'Read more' if you want to be further "enlightened", but it's probably going to end up being a rant kind of thing.

WARNING: WALL OF TEXT  & tl;dr

As in Mad-Eyed Moody!
Nah, I'm just kidding. WG & AN blogged tonight (yesterday?) so I felt like blogging too. Hurrah for peer pressure! :)

Time is running out to catch up with schoolwork, and I've stopped caring about anything and everything school related. But life isn't about lollygagging around and doing things you want to do. No of course not. That'd be far too easy and we can't have life being easy now, can we?

Had a loltastic talk with WG today. x) I don't think I can ever talk to her without actually lol-ing at the screen and getting weird looks from my brother.

Just a little warning in advance, this is probably going to be a somewhat self-absorbed post.

I'm listening to that "Calling to the Night" song again and it's got a chokehold on my heart. Every time I hear it, I come close to crying. I know that it's already inspired the start of a story that's gone onto my brainstorming notepad file. But I'm forcing myself not to do any writing right now. I know that if I do, I won't be able to do any more schoolwork or studying, which is why I had to finish that story. It was stealing my time and energy. I want to sing this song so badly. But people are in bed and the house is not empty. I wish I was standing on the corner of a busy intersection of endless traffic. I like that feeling of being there, but not quite at the same time. And the noise is loud enough to cover my voice.

I don't even know what I want anymore. Sometimes I think being in a relationship would be nice. But I also think that I enjoy my solitude. I love my friends and sometimes I think that there is no room for anyone else in my life. But I shouldn't even think about these sorts of things. These thoughts just make me feel weird. In the end, I know that I could do just fine by myself. Relationship talk makes me feel weird. I know I'm young, I know that I shouldn't believe in words like "never". But I don't know. I don't want to know.

Well, I think I've just got to study Math hardcore, review some more Physics, and try and finish CPSC lab 5 (from before the reading break lololol) before school starts again.

And I just stumbled upon the Harry Potter wiki website which just makes it that much easier to go ADD on studying Physics. Woot.

I was sick of it 3 days ago. It's no better right now. :T
The first practice final was really not bad, but the second practice final...
Ughhhhhh. Just gonna wing it. Well. It's like. Either you got the physucks logic down (which I don't because it works contrary to my logic), or you don't. And I don't. So I'll just plug stuff into as many equations as possible.
D:
But after tomorrow morning, I will be good. I will be happy and free and I will forget about my marks altogether. :)

Okay okay, so things I'm planning for winter break:
- JOHNNY DEPP movie marathon (Jan. 3)
- Guitar Hero jam session/video game party?! (TBA)

WHY DOES SCHOOL HAVE TO START AGAIN JAN. 4th?! It leaves no time for anything ;_;
Hmmmm now I'm wondering... are there any movies out in theatres that we were intending on watching together? o_o


Bussing to school tomorrow is going to be a bitch.
Go ahead, weather, prove me wrong. D:

I feel as though... I don't know. Today was an excellent day. :)

I just finished my CPSC lab. Before I went out today, I was just so worried that I would never get it. But after I came back, I just sat down and worked it out. It was so freaking simple!
Even if it is 1:22am...
Whatever. :D That's done. Just CPSC assignment left to worry about for CPSC.

Chem... eh. Gotta work on that online quiz tomorrow for sure (it IS due tomorrow). And then I just have to stress about studying and the crystal structures online quiz.

My Physics group just e-mailed back and forth today while I was out and apparently they want to meet @ 4pm on Monday. Since I'm done my CPSC lab and my mom is done with the lab exams, I should be off campus by 3pm tops. But now... I dunno D:

No math homework for once! Just gotta look the stuff over in anticipation of a likely/possible quiz on Tuesday.

Tomorrow will be dedicated to Chem and editing an essay.